A moment within me.

A favorite photo of me, May 2012, Canada:

 My hands , my leg and my foot. The way they just go together . The connect ....in a spiritual way. I see beauty , but I felt so broken and such heartache .( I took this when I arrived in Canada . Took a taxi from airport to hotel.) I felt like I wanted to just let go and set myself free, but I could not. To feel a sense of release. However, the pieces were connected in such a way that could not be detached. The moment was beyond words..... Like a soul wanting to leave a body to heal. A body wanting to be made new again and mend. Yet, both feeling trapped.  "Through one persons ugliness, you then begin to see the beauty of others" - Jeanette L. Vela

Are you truly living the desires of your heart?

Are you living the desires of your heart?

Have you ever stopped to take a look in the mirror and ask yourself that question?  What are the desires of your heart? I'm not talking about things like winning the lotto , buying a car, but going deeper into the core of who you are. What do you desire? What are your dreams? What passions drive you? What feels right in the center of your heart that when you think about it, your blood starts pumping with such conviction? There are two ways to live life. You can live life embracing the blessing that God places in front of you, or you can live life in air plane mode. Just coasting through the motions of your everyday life. When you wake up in the morning are you excited about what's in store for your day or do you just want the day to be over with already? When you take time to be still to look deep within your self you find what the desires of your heart are. Sometimes we get so caught up with the things of the world that we lose focus on our self. I was once told, "you get only one shot to make things work. You make the descion to give your best shot or just walk away and never know what could have been." Today I ask you three questions: What are the desires of your heart? Are you truly living or are you just coasting through the motions? What are you going to do ..... take the chance to give it your all or walk away and never know?

“THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE “ Director: Charles Kinnane

This is a must see film. Life is more than the four walls we see every day.
Challenge: See life through the eyes and heart of God, rather than the eyes of our own human thoughts and emotions.

Here are my take aways:

When you step out of your own element and step into someone else’s, that is learning. People take things in their life for granted.
God has a purpose for us all! We are not forgotten by him.
If you treasure your life, you should treasure the life of others. Live with the sensitivity you know you have and be sensitive towards others:  ~ Dr. William B. Hurlbut: Consultant for Neuroscience Stanford university
No matter how bad off a person is, for everybody their life was a treasure. Life is worth living. They just needed to be nurtured by someone.  The nature of life is to be hopeful ~ Dr. William B. Hurlbut
Life is other people: look at others as if that was you. It would change your mind on how you would do things. You become more humble.  Your heart will forever change.
"The last of the human freedoms is to choose one's attitude" ~ Viktor Frankel
Leap of faith: what does it look like???
"We must rapidly begin the shift from a 'thing-oriented' Society to a 'person-oriented' society" ~ Martin Luther King J
 Whatever experience we have, wither its good or bad, we can always remember and learn something from it. ~ Dr. Alveda C. King
Communication is the learning of all experiences.  It’s a part of growth.  Get to know those that you think are different from you. We are all masterpieces created by God. We all bleed the same Blood that was shed from our father. He is within us. We are a part of him.
Doing what’s right for the greater good of Gods people.  What does that mean to you??
What does peace in your heart feel like?? Have you truly found peace in your life???  When did you feel this peace??? How have you stained this peace?? Have you helped others try to find the peace within them??
Everyone is on a journey trying to find a purpose in their life. Where there is life there is hope. We all have a seed within us. Water it, embrace it and love it. Grow to the person god created within you!
If you have very strong faith, you have everything.
"Life is sacred, that is to say it is the supreme value, to which all other values are subordinate" ~ Albert Einstein
~~~~ Suffering is a journey deeper into the heart of life....... even in the deepest suffering there is significance there is a meaning process of positive possibilities ~~~~~~
  Trust in God, observe the rules of GOD. Walk in the truth and the promises of God. Life without faith is unbearable.
Community is where you can give and find yourself. Family is the first experience we have.  It  the foundation for the future. 
God is family. He is your father. Let him guide you, love as he loves you.
Let him into your heart! only you know what your life is truly like and what you feel deep inside your heart!

have you truly found yourself? Are you the person that truly lies within you??

Woke up this morning @ 2am and this song was playing on my phone...... Life has many obstacles and we have so much that surrounds us. Always remember to never loose yourself.When you  Find who YOU are, embrace your heart, soul and the discovery of you! Love yourself, give yourself light, allow yourself the happiness you deserve, and have peace in your heart. Today think about who you really are. Ask yourself, Am I really living as the person within me? Or am I living the person that others want??? Take the step to find yourself. :) Gift the gift to another to discovery who they are as well! :)


"Come Back To Me"

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me

"thought to ponder"

When Jesus saw his ministry drawing huge crowds, he climbed a hillside. Those who were apprenticed to him, the committed, climbed with him. Arriving at a quiet place, he sat down and taught his climbing campanions. This is what he said:

"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.

"Your're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you embrace the one most dear to you.
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"You're blessed when you're content with just who you are-no more, no less. That's the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can't be bought.

"You're blessed when you care. At the moment of being 'care-ful,' you find yourselves cared for.

"You're blessed when you get your inside world-your mind and heart-put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.

"Your're blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family.

"You're blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God's kingdom.

"Not only that-count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to dicredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens-give a cheer, even!-for though they don't like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.

GOD said NO

I asked God to take away my pride, And God said, “No.” He said it was not for Him to take away, But for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole, And God said, “No.” He said her spirit is whole. Her body is only temporary.
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I asked God to grant me patience, And God said, “No.” He said patience is a by-product of tribulation. It isn’t granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness, And God said, “No.” He said He gives blessings, Happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain, And God said, “No.” He said, “Suffering draws you apart from Worldly cares and brings you closer to Me.”

I asked God to make my spirit grow, And God said, “No.” He said I must grow on my own, But he will prune me to make it fruitful.

I asked God if He loved me, And God said, “Yes.” He gave me His only son, who died for me. And I will be in Heaven someday Because… I believe.

I asked God to help me love others As much as He loves me, And God said, “Ah finally, you have the idea.”

-By Claudia Minden Welsz

Stepping back, How do you truly see yourself?

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me."  ~Erma Bombeck
"I used everything you gave me"? What would "everything you gave me" be exactly? Where do you truly find and embrace the gift you hold within you?  What I find amazing is how we as humans can live life without truly knowing if we are living or existing. This year has had many turns and twists for me. From situations, people I've met, people who are in our lives, family, friends, work and truly understanding myself as a "whole person".
I can say that my life has been an interesting journey. I didn't know then, what I know now. We take a path in our lives that we don't seem to understand at the time, but know that its where we are. Thinking about nothing just living the moment, to thinking about your past, present, and future (if you can even see it at times). I always knew that I had a gift to embrace the positive potential in others, and had an open heart for what they may be going through. There was nothing I wouldn't do to ensure I could help them. Even if it meant that I was getting used to feed their selfishness. I would get hurt over and over and just didn't get it.  I have also hurt others as well in the process. I am sorry and have asked Our Lord and savior for forgiveness, but I still felt this emptiness inside that no matter what, it  wouldn't or  couldn't get filled. I now understand why? See even though I had the talent to talk to other "network" I truly could never really embrace it. Just as it would come into my life it would leave or I would find reason for it not to exist. I would pray over and over not understanding how by helping others I was still feeling helpless, sad, and lonely. Filling their pain with happiness was like putting a dagger in my own heart (I couldn't fill my own pain). I had pains I could not set free. I had sadness, that I allowed to control me. Tears would roll down my face and the darkness of the night would embrace my whole being. Even though I believed that things would get better, I'm my heart I felt like "is this it"? Is this the way my life was going to be? I help others, I love unconditional, I put my self last and go out of my way to be the better person, and yet the pain is so easily inflicted into my heart, the words that are used to talk to me scar my heart like razors cutting through flesh, My stomach aches as if a freight train has hit it head on, My mind begins to drift in thoughts of non existence. I could never imagine my life outside this darkness. I would pray, pray hard make my self believe that it would one day get better. It was so hard to focus on the positive or the faith of God, when all darkness would befriend me and convinced me to walk its path. It made me feel like walking alone was the company I would have. To give up on the beliefs and values I had. That they should  just be thrown out the door.
As I look back, from this moment and time in my life I appreciate the way my life was (even if it was lonely, sad and ugly at time) You see, god does not give you more that you can handle. He truly listens to his children every word every thought, every feeling that lies deep in your heart. He has a great plan for us, greater that we can or could ever imagine. Through the trials and tribulations we have, where we are at our weakest, he is strongest. Our faith in him is tested daily through our own free will. He harvests us into the man or women we are to become. He gets us ready for the biggest role of our lives. He foresees what will happen. Its been written, envisioned and done! He has done all the work for us, we just have to truly accept him in our hearts, see that he speaks to us in ways that are not seen, but felt. It sometimes takes something major that has effected/impacted us in a huge way to realize that he is talking to us, "just as he giveth he taketh". On April 21, 2011 The Lord took my life and shook me to see realize the path I have been avoiding to take was my calling. My love for people and seeing the goodness through the evil, was my gift to serve him through helping others. To unite and find those that have been lost (starting with me). But, I couldn't begin my journey until I had found myself and until I truly trusted in his plans for me. I became and ordained Minister June 2. 2011. This was a moment in which I left my old life to lead and guide in my new journey. When i gave up on myself, I turn to others to lift me from my falls. Sometimes I was alone and other times someone was there. (positive or negative influence). April 21, I turned and completely relied on Him!(he never left me) My life has changed in ways i never thought possible. I have seen prayers, requests, dreams, wants, visions come to life through him. Through him all things are possible, if you just let him love and guide you. I am living in unconditional happiness. I lead every moment of my life through him with him. He is my guide. Let me tell you this, you are the only one that can keep your self from living your dreams, having your wants, experiencing lifes paths, and being extremely happy! You complete yourself (your whole person) through him, to be happy. Everything and everyone else adds to your happiness. When you were born, your were born with him by your side. When you die, You will die with him by your side. He wants to love you, let him love you. He suffered the worst painful death any human can go through for us, for our sins. Today look forward not backwards. Detach yourself from the people, things, ideas or situations that are not healthy or add sadness in your life. Step into the light and begin your journey of everlasting happiness. Enjoy the gifts in which you have with in you. My prayers are with each of you!
Embrace his love and let his light guide you!
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